This movie is so insightful, it makes me wonder if me and some of my friends should be in mental institutions right now. Lol

Anyway, these were the thoughts on my mind early this morning in random word vomit form:

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Sorry it couldn’t be more eloquent or fluid, just had to release.

…a hug makes is ridiculous! I didn’t realize how much I missed that. I felt safe and secure, something I haven’t felt in a while.

When I dialed that number I didn’t really know what to expect, but you were just what I needed. I can’t say I’m tryna get that old thing back, but its good to know who you can depend on during hard times.

Its funny how easy it is to blog when I’m going through something, but this blog is supposed to chronicle my life so I can look back later at my growth and I wanna be able to remember some good things too, lol. I’m working on it!

Today has been a strange one. I just laughed and right after I had this moment where it felt good to know I even could. It was a bittersweet moment, and unfortunately this new balancing act will be my life for a while.

On one hand I’m letting go of an unhealthy relationship that caused me alot of pain and on the other hand are all these great memories of the good times and soooo much laughter, and sooooo many smiles. But things will be back to normal soon enough. I haven’t even cried once, and I’m not really hurting. Feels kinda shitty to say but it’s true.

Overall I’m just feeling like there is an empty space inside me right now, just a void. I have wrapped everything up to the best of my abilities and it is done. I know the hole will close on it’s own in time, but for now I just have to get used to one of my best friends not being there. Here it goes. Day 1.

…never loved me, and you made that more than clear today. Thank you for proving it once and for all. I’m in a good place. Goodbye.