These four walls are closing in on me. I feel like I’m being quarantined. Like I’m the little ebola monkey from Outbreak or something. I miss human interaction. I miss being able to laugh, breathe, and talk without pain. I miss my baby. I miss eating cereal. I miss playing with Amare and Kiani. I miss D coming out of nowhere tickling me until I sock him in his arm. I even miss the shit that annoys me, like my mom making me take my little bad ass siblings places because she’s lazy. And this is only 2 days into my 2 week getting better process, which pretty much consists of me not having or doing all these things.

To be honest, I’m mostly just tired of staring at this computer screen and the TV. Some days I like laying around being lazy, but when I have no other choice, I get cabin fever SO fast. I’m lying here looking and feeling like death warmed over, but I’m still trying to find entertainment, because as hard as I try I cannot go to sleep until I am completely exhausted. I basically wrote all this to say, if you are able to go outside and get some fresh air, go do it for me. Go out and cherish the one moment in your life when you can honestly say “hey, atleast I’ve got it better than Neek”. LMAO Just playin, just playin. But seriously play hopscotch, or do a backflip, or blow some bubbles just for me, because I can’t, and I desperately want to.

With love & hopes that you NEVER feel like this,

Neek