Today has been a strange one. I just laughed and right after I had this moment where it felt good to know I even could. It was a bittersweet moment, and unfortunately this new balancing act will be my life for a while.

On one hand I’m letting go of an unhealthy relationship that caused me alot of pain and on the other hand are all these great memories of the good times and soooo much laughter, and sooooo many smiles. But things will be back to normal soon enough. I haven’t even cried once, and I’m not really hurting. Feels kinda shitty to say but it’s true.

Overall I’m just feeling like there is an empty space inside me right now, just a void. I have wrapped everything up to the best of my abilities and it is done. I know the hole will close on it’s own in time, but for now I just have to get used to one of my best friends not being there. Here it goes. Day 1.